One man’s tragic miscalculation in Nazi Europe and a family story lost then found again were the sparks for new novel The Light At The End Of The Day, reveals author ELEANOR WASSERBERG.
The painting is captivating, but it’s hard to pinpoint why.
The little girl stands in a scarlet dress with ballooning short sleeves, her hand resting on the back of a dining chair. A glossy cascade of blond hair pours over her shoulder as she looks into your eyes with an expression that is hard to read. Her name is Alicia. She is nine years old. And her world is soon to be dismembered by forces which are horribly familiar to us: the extreme right is on the rise, minorities are being scapegoated, and political strongmen are flexing their muscles. This is Alicia’s story: the story of my grandfather’s aunt.
If I invite you over for dinner with my family, be warned, it tends to go like this: we have wine, and then we start talking about the Holocaust. Most of the time my family has a sarcastic allergy to the serious, so when I try to warn friends and boyfriends, they rarely believe me. It’s only when we’ve each sunk half a bottle that a morbid undercurrent starts pulling us inexorably into the past and towards Eastern Europe. Then my guests realise I wasn’t joking.
I grew up with only a vague sense that my paternal grandfather, who we all knew as George, was from some other place across Europe, somewhere cold and far away. Confused by our surname, when I was very young I would tell people he was German. My dad soon corrected me: George was Polish. Grandad spoke with a beautifully lilting accent and it made me laugh when he insisted the plural of sheep was sheepses.
I was a happily self-absorbed child and only half-listened to his stories, which would meander between a childhood in Krakow, the RAF in Egypt, moving to the UK. Sometimes he spoke of Karolina, his mother and a poet who, he told us, had let herself be blown up in Warsaw rather than let the Nazis take her.
George’s real name was Jerzy. He died in his nineties, but not before my parents, aware time was running out, sat with him over a week or two at his home in Sussex and recorded all of his stories. At some point the tapes were lost in a house move. I had never made time to listen to them.
In my early twenties, years after George’s death, I moved to Paris. My parents came to visit, and between eating patisserie and sweating up the endless flights of stairs to my apartment we went to the Holocaust memorial. There’s a huge black marble wall with the names of the victims deported from Paris engraved in gold. There was our name: Wasserberg, Ignace. George’s father. My dad stroked the letters on the black marble and went uncharacteristically quiet.
Later, in a tiny bistro in Pigalle, we talked through the details, my mum supplying things George had told her when they recorded the tapes. Ignace had been safe in Switzerland, but inexplicably travelled to France in 1942, into the mouth of the tiger of his own accord. Perhaps to check on a property there, George had thought. He was arrested as a Jew, sent to Paris, then Drancy, and then on to Auschwitz. We sat breaking crusty bread into little pieces, dipping it in oil, obsessing together over the moment Ignace realised his catastrophic mistake. Was it as soon as he was asked for his papers? In the train to Paris? At Drancy? Or did he think, up until the last moment, that this was all some administrative error, that someone would be waiting for him in a car beyond the barbed wire? These questions joined fragments of other family stories as my novel The Light At The End Of The Day was taking shape.
The painting of Alicia is called The Girl in the Red Dress. It hangs in the Museum Narodowe in Kielce, Poland. Alicia was the sister of my grandad’s mother, Karolina, and her real name is Josepha Oderfeld.
Josepha survived. On a trip to Krakow in 2016, I met Josepha’s grandson, and her great-granddaughters, my cousins. We ate bagels and made small talk in broken English and French, and looked at photographs and family trees with branches that broke off again and again in 1942. I felt we were scattered shrapnel from an explosion long ago. Back home in England, I hung a print of the painting, the red brightening my tiny kitchen, and began writing about her. She became Alicia, and around her and the painting I told a story.
I hope reading The Light At The End Of The Day is a little like having dinner with my family: enjoyable and rich like good food and wine, before realising you’ve been pulled unexpectedly into a world that’s already gone, filled with orphaned voices and unquiet images that echo down the generations.
The Light At The End Of The Day, by Eleanor Wasserberg, will be published by HarperCollins Australia on August 8. Tell us if you like the sound of it at the Sunday Book Club Facebook group. In the meantime our Book of the Month is Karin Slaughter’s The Silent Wife. There’s a 30 per cent discount for readers of this masthead at Booktopia with the code WIFE.